MY STORY

MY STORY
  
My story is one that I haven’t shared with many outside family and close friends. Im hoping by sharing my story Im able to help others that struggle. I have come a long way since my last battle with illness, a time where I never seen an end to the suffering of illness.

So by telling my story Im hoping that others may see the light at the end of their story.

 I believe as most stories do, it started when I was born forty three years ago. I was born a healthy weight but within a couple of days I was unable to eat and began to be unable to eat, and I dropped to three pounds.With other underlying issues as well. At the time they were un sure of what the issue was so they sent me to Toronto Sick Kids in Toronto Ontario, which was an hour away. I was three days old when they had to do surgery to remove a mass that was in my stomach, which was causing me to be unable to hold food down. I was so ill that I was in the hospital for three months, but remember this was a time when technology was not as good as it is today. My family had to travel to see me, which back then was a huge deal. My mother would stay there with me as no mother would leave their new born baby alone in a hospital. Which Im sure caused a financial strain on the family. As well I had an brother who was 6 years older. Which Im sure was very confusing to him as he wouldn’t understand why his baby sister could not come home . 
This was the beginning to a life long struggle to stay well. I continued to have stomach issues throughout my childhood years. I began to have severe pain. It also felt like a heart tack, not that an eleven year old would know what that felt like, but I sure did, it’s the only way I knew how to explain it. After months of testing in my cities hospital, they decided to send me back to Sick Children’s Hospital. I was there a month to find out I had Gallstones and they had been baffled as they had not seen a young child with stones at that time. They let me out to eat a juicy hamburger to see if it would bring on a pain attack and it worked. I ended up having surgery the next day. To find out I had, had the stones for they say for a couple years due to the size of them. I was the youngest person to have had a gallbladder removed. Im in the books. I was eleven years old.  

  
I have also had exploratory surgeries to see what was causing different pain through out the years.

When I was 21 years old I then had to have a complete hysterectomy due to woman’s issues. 

I then ended up being diagnosed after a three month stay in hospital with Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome. My stomach had paralyzed and I was unable to digest food. They placed a feeding tube by passing my stomach. I had this in place for about six months. I suffered sever dehydration having to have IV fluids everyday. Working with my doctor and specialist I was able to train my stomach to start working again. It was a very long process but little by little I was able to train my stomach to receive food again.  

Now after 6 years Im able to eat well, minus a few things that don’t agree with me. Im also able to gain weight and keep it on. I still have days that are not that great, but I have more great days now than ever before.  

My saying is Do not judge me from my past, I no longer live there. I would like to thank all of the hard working Nurses, doctors and anyone who had a hand in my health care. I know it was not easy for any of you, I was a hard case to crack most of the time. May your endless days and nights of trying to figure it out be blessed with the knowing that you saved a new born baby and helped a young girl get healthy to live on to be a woman of strength and courage to continue on. Never under estimate the power of ones own strength and power of prayer and the love from family and friends.  

Thank you to 

DR. Gysler Credit Valley Hospital in Missisauga

Dr. Moore St. Micheals Hospital Toronto

Dr. Crisp  Oshawa Nurology  

Dr. Lottering my family Doctor, thank you for always making time, when your time is busy. 

This is my story,

  
Tonia

 

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FRIENDS

  
Friends

What do your friends mean to you. Are they the sister you never had, are they the brother that you never had. Are your friends life long friends or are they new friends? Do you have many friends or do you have a small select few.

Do you you speak to your best friend every day or do you have a type of relationship that you speak threw out the week? Or do you have those friends that you live apart but when you finally see each other its like you never were apart?

I was once explained that friends can be summed up into boxes, friends have the same type of qualities so they can go into once box and then there are friends that you have that the others friends may never meet. Not all your friends need to know each other. You may have friends that you enjoy going out with and other friends you may just hang out with and have a coffee with. Some friends you see all the time as you may be closer than the other friends not that you think any less of your other friends but we gel differently with different people. Some you may get along together but you would never go away with them as they may drive you crazy for one reason or another. And the saying goes if you want to know how well you get along with your friends go away with them and see how you get along. 

Everyone needs friends as they are what we thrive and enjoy our lives with, Sometimes our siblings can be our best friends as well. And the other saying as well is you can pick your friends but you can pick your family.   

I have a few great friends, and I have many acquaintances And now with Social media we probably have many friends that we know or knew at some time in our lives but we don’t see them on a regular basis.  

I know some schools still do reunions but really is it necessary now with social media. All we have to do now is log onto Facebook and see what our old friends are up to. What they look and how many children they have. This can be a great tool to keep up wth our friends and family.

I think friends are great to have, they can make you laugh and wipe away your tears when needed, hold you accountable and maybe get into some trouble with. Fun trouble that is.  

Do you have a friend that you haven’t seen in awhile that you miss?

Do you think that men and woman can be strictly friends? I personally think they can I have many great male friends. Many that I have had for years.

They are like brothers to me and I know that at any time that I can call upon them to come to my rescue if needed. Men can be great sounding boards as well to help woman understand the men they are dating. Its all about trust and great communication.

If you have a best friend give them a call or reach out and spend some time with them. Life is too short. Your friend may need you as much as you need them! 
Tonia

  

SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) 

  
This time of year starts to get people in a sadder state, its darker earlier and the sun starts to shine a little less threw out the day. People are starting to feel the effects of colds and flues. Its that time of year that the flue shots start rolling into doctors offices. A time to make sure you have anti bacteria hand sanitizer and washing your hands a hundred times a day to keep the germs away. 

Some people suffer from SAD Seasonal Affective Disorder  

Heres a link to better understand it.

http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/seasonal-affective-disorder/basics/definition/con-20021047 
This disorder can make one tired and sad and depressed due to the lack of vitamin D, and the longer days due to nights getting dark earlier. This is the one reason why I go away to the sunny south in the winter. It gives me energy and allows me to become more alive after I return back from a trip.  

Do you suffer from SAD? If so lets talk about it.  

Tonia

  

Being Alone Does Not Mean Your Lonely 

  

Being Alone does not mean your lonely.. It means you enjoy your own company. 
When one learns to not mind being alone, one will learn what true peace is. Wether you are able to putter around the home, read or when someone asks you to do something and you reply, no it’s ok I’m not doing anything today, and you mean it, because your just enjoying being alone. 

I love being around my friends and family but I also love being home alone with a good book or sitting alone blogging, with a cup of tea. Some one once said to me  that once you learn to love yourself and being alone that is when you learn who you really are. Whether you pray or meditate, that is also another way to learn who you truly are. 
My wish for everyone is that everyone learns to love themselves and love being alone. so my question for you is what makes you happy? What do you enjoy doing when your able to take some time for yourself? 
Comment below and keep the conversation going, what makes you feel complete and happy? 
Tonia

Starbucks 

As I sit here in a Starbucks in my town, I’m amazed at how many people have come and gone in the time I’ve been here. Some have stayed and enjoyed there coffee alone or with friends or family. Is it the coffee that brings people into the popular Starbucks, is it the atmosphere and the free wifi? The coffee is great the price not so much.  So I ask what brings people in. I’ve seen young people and older people, coming and going. The staff are friendly and bubbly and are more than Happy to serve you. So I ask what brings you to Starbucks is it the coffe or the name or a combiuof both? Where do you go for your cup of Joe? Comment and let me know. 

  
 

Mi Pequena Casa – My Tiny House

Some people love big homes with lots of room to rome around and entertain, and some live in tiny homes. After watching Tiny Homes on HGTV Canada I thought I would write about my home. I live in a tiny home and I love it. I live in a basement apartment, and I love my tiny place, its comfy, cozy and its a place you should feel safe. Im proud of my home and Im surrounded by the things I love that family and fineds have givine me. I have chosen to share my home with you all. I hope you enjoy. I belive that its not about how big you live, its about ho your home makes you feel.  

In the living room I use two boxes which hold my dvd’s, blankets and extra stuff that I do not use every day. I have put a tray ontop of then to make a coffee table. When I have more guests I then can use the cubes as extra seating. I also have two bucket seats to be able to have more room and more seats, allowing more comfort for my guests. Baskets are amazing for extra storage. 

  
In the washroom it is large enough to have a dresser for clothes, and linens. I also have a storage bin under the stairs to have more space a well. 

  
In the kitchen I use beautiful glass jars and canisters to store my stuff. not only is it great for storage it looks great as well and saves space. I have a beautiiful glass table that has two seats but is big enought to seat  six people around it, comfortably. And with it having a glass table it makes the space look larger. 

  
In my beautiful bedroom, which I call my place of serenity. I have a double bed which has beautiful linens and big beautiful pillows. I love to travel and I love that by bed makes me feel like Im on vacation all the time.  I refinished a book shelf to house my beautiful shoes and handbags. Which allows me to see them as well and get to them easily. 

  
Behind the curtain, I store my pots and pans and other kitchen things, as well i store my Christma things and I have a closet organizer in ther as well. to store my dresses and other clothes that I do not wear on a regular basis. 

  
I have made my place, a place to call home, and Im proud to share my home with you. I hope you enjoyed it. Living tiny in a big world. 

Tonia